Spiritual Life Continues....

26/06/12

--In the morning just after meditation I heard a voice in my head like a clear instruction ”Go Learn about Human Mind scientifically”. I went ahead and learnt a lot about the science behind functioning of human mind. I conclude that MIND in its original form is designed to protect the human body from everything. If a person's life is in danger it can even make time run slow for that person. By taking more frame/second the brain access more info/sec, making time go slow so that one can take appropriate actions to save oneself.

--At night when I was unable to get over the train of thoughts during my meditation and when I thought to give up, a voice again came to my head but this time with  great love  ”Mere se milna nahi chahte..apni chahat barhao ” (Don’t You want to meet me, increase your wanting). I was shocked but also happy with the lovely way these words were said to me.

-- “When space and time cease to exist, its then and there you realize your existence.”

--Few days back when I heard Anita explaining her near- death experience saying “When I was dead everything was happening at one time with simultaneity and to whatever I turned my focus on I could see happening”

And today when I was driving, my friend told me about the importance of side mirrors in a car.As I turned my attention to side mirrors of the car, suddenly all I could see around me were side mirrors on the road. Actually I became so aware of side mirrors that in all the cars around me I was only seeing side mirrors. I saw in a seminar done by Jack Canfield where he asked audience to count the number of “F” in a full printed page. Strangely the number changed as per one’s intensity of focus in that same page for different people. Let me ask YOU to do this: concentrate on any single color, NOW, do it for 30 seconds, and then go on a walk/ or look around, you will suddenly start seeing that color all around at places you never noticed before. Thus, I can relate to Anita’s Post-Life experience that whatever we turn our attention to, starts to happen for and to us. And the learning  is that if one hunts for happiness or opportunity so shall he find and one who looks for troubles find so. But the question is if that true, then is Time just an illusion as was believed by the great Einstein?

05/07

--I realize that it is the non-living part of the universe that the living part should take lessons from and not think that non-living part is worthless. What do we mean by “living” is actually that it is soon going to “die”. Or you can say the other meaning of “Living” is “Dying”, cause each moment you are living you can also be said to be dying. So Living is just the other name of Dying. It is the just the game of emotions, which are the differentiators between us and.the non-living. For example, Mountains stand rock solid and do not get affected by wind or rain . They just stands there still as ever. Learn Stillness from them. We and the earth each is made up of 70% water, still water never shows pride but is colorless, accepting the color of its container.Learn from nature 'cause you never know in reality may be they are living and we are Lost : ) 

--Past is a point where we generally are free from fear as we consider it over. Though there are few exceptions where incidents have made a great impact on sub conscious mind, we know that even if past actions or results do come back it will be in “Future” or in “Now”. “Now” is what we generally see as fear, an obstruction for your great future. Future is imagined generally as a golden opportunity full of energy and happiness with you its hero.
  

--I do not understand when people say LET GO or DETACH as when You say DETACH aren’t you attached to Detach? You are so much into getting detached from everything that before you realize you are attached to detaching yourself from everything, to all extent possible.

06/07

--I AM THE Hope of GOD. So Rise UP and Let the Hope prevail.

--My intense curosity to figure out my source of existence and my final destination led me to what Rumi said “we are born out of nothingness”. I think when we die our bodies will also become nothing one day. Everyone was just a dot when they came into this physical reality. To satiate my craving to know the source, I further investigated and came to know that Scientist have found that with proper microscope you cn see the ultimate layer in an atom and that is "vibration" . Thus, if I am just vibration and with the help of my mind go beyond that vibration I may find Nothingness. I am born out of Nothingness, when I die and my folks burn my body similarly my body will perish into nothingness again. I read somewhere “I am Everything and I am Nothing”. SO you are everything and everywhere if you can realize so and also You are nothing and nowhere if you are aware.

OK. So if we go inside vibrations we find nothingness…SO what is NOTHINGNESS??? How can I feel Nothingness??? If you can teach me Anything, then first please teach me NOTHING. I believe nobody can teach anything to you, but can only make you aware of things you know. In pure awareness you know that you know everything because Knowing itself is YOU.

So can we understand “Death” with this thinking? Let’s see.  So, though we are just vibrations, just because we can’t see it to that minute scale we perceive things to be solid, liquid, or gas. So basically when I die one form of vibration becomes another form and that’s the reason people due to their lack of consciousness can’t see thru the physical reality and they express it as death but in reality it is actually just a shift of vibrational form.

--What do we mean by seeing? What is seeing?  What are eyes? So when people say” blinds are unfortunate” aren’t we judging based on comparing with what is available to most other human beings. May be that there are many more things which most are devoid of, such as seeing electrons, UV rays, or beyond sky.

07/07

--Today while meditating I realized that one should not restrict himself with just his age group, even though it is more comfortable as you are generally going through same physical and emotional illusions/reality. But the real learning comes when U surround yourself with all different age groups as you learn more about life and yourself. In India, there has been a tradition of joint family, where everyone keeps on learning, sometimes even through bad experiences, from others of different people of age, size and shape.

--Trying to meditate, I realized that I should look for silence or the stillness in me and should try to realize myself in me. I soon realized that “the realization itself is me”

--So in further note to yesterday’s seeing thought:

When I am closing my eyes and trying to remember something, I am able to do so. I mean, I can clearly see a picture of a sunset or a sunrise or a full moon night. Thus it is proved that for seeing, you do not need eyes as even with close eyes you seeing things or with open eyes see things not present there before ur eyes in now. Our mind is so designed that it says I will only look outside and not look inside. As if eyes could look inside, I could see what is going in my body and my spirit. But I believe eyes are just a way to interpret the light waves (we can’t see in dark, can we?) to neurons and that there is something else that is seeing, eyes are just converting photons to some chemical form to be picked up as signals for neurons to reach brain …I still need to figure out what is actually seeing then…waiting for the idea to pop up in my head.

--What is Sound? I think its just pure vibration that travels at a great speed than what I can track. For that matter what is speaking? If I run out of breath, I cannot speak, so air is what we use to speak. With the help of vocal chords, I change the vibrations and ears correspond to those vibrations. Everything is vibration.

--What is AIR? What is Vacuum?

10/07

--In continuation of seeing:

 How do we see? If I answer to my previous question of how can we see with closed eyes saying that we see through those mental images stored in head. But what about those new images that we see with closed eyes in our dream. We have never seen them before; I am sure each one of us must have experienced such a dream. So something new which these external physical eyes have never seen, I see in a dream with closed eyes, HOW? To take it to another dimension IMAGINATION is my word of discussion. When we imagine, we are capable of seeing new or innovative pictures even when our eyes haven’t seen it. We can turn on the resolution to higher than what we generally see through eyes. All I have to do is to INTENT for it, expect for it and I have it there in my head.

--Understanding my MIND:

While I was about to prepare something, I mixed lemon to the already prepared stuff and now was thinking to add some more good stuff. My mind searched thru all options available with me currently and came up with milk (an image mind has been stored while I opened the fridge several times). I thought OK I will use milk, but then soon in mind flashed a sensation and other part of mind itself translated it to language and I sensed that saying “NO” because milk should not be mixed with lemon. I stopped to think What just Happened? How was my mind working? It searched all the related files with LEMON stored in my head and presented a few of Highly important stored images. Warnings etc has high priority and comes 1^st.

--I and God are not two different but ONE and same.

 --To meditate I realize is to become Aware of your inner silence and breathing. Do nothing just become aware, because that’s what we are in true natural self, AWARENESS. Pure Awareness. So if we are aware I know I am more than my emotions. I do not get involved and disturbed in thoughts but just be aware of it. I am aware of my body. I have now to become aware of ME.