Monday, January 11, 2010

Dr.Problem My Best Buddy

Hi my dear Diary,

Today I wanna tell you something about my dear friend Dr. Problem. Of course he needs no introduction as he keeps on meeting everyone every now and then. He has no degree but is a Dr. just because of his personality and commitment. He possesses vivacious personality and has commitment to heal people dying from monotony to what they think is LIFE but is nothing more than a vicious circle to achieve Hedonism. According to him Life has no monotony but is different every second.

What is Life without a Problem, it’s like Romance without Love. The evanescent romance without love will leave you with nothing more than repent. It’s all because of eternal love that you can truly understand the spirit of romance.
Likewise to not just exist but live u need a problem, it give you a reason to fight, it keeps on challenging you or should I say its this what keeps you Alive. To keep people alive is what a Doctor does and that’s why he is called Dr Problem (Dr. P).

Dr P and I are like best buddies, we hang out together but yesterday night we had a big fight. I came late from office and was really tired. Apart from the good morning smile from Sarah, nothing great happened whole day. I had loads of pending work and was feeling very low so just wanted to be with myself. Suddenly the bell ranged, I was in no mood to get up, but I thought may be it was Sarah. It was Dr.P, I opened it, said ‘Hi’ and went into my room and closed it. I thought he would go after sometime seeing that I am in no mood to entertain him. I started listening songs and tried relaxing oblivious to the fact that Dr.P was getting pissed off by my ignorance.

He knocked my room’s door, I didn’t answer, He knocked twice and I thought why the hell he is not going? Can’t he see I am in no mood to meet him? Seeing no response from me he started shouting out my name, I replied irritated ‘Yia! Dr.P, I can hear you. It’s just that I am very tired now so could we please talk tomorrow ’. He replied at a higher pitch “Hey why U ignoring me? You think if you ignore me I will leave you alone. Am I not your friend?” I really had no clue what to say I thought if I didn’t pay attention he would go but he is right there at my door asking me why I didn’t deal with him at the 1st place? He had the keys to my room as well, so he started opening it. I got afraid to face him, so in a hurry I went to the attached balcony and closed the sliding pane.

He came in, his face was red, I am not sure with anger or with humiliation of being ignored by his best buddy. I felt so helpless and bad. He saw me through the pane and raised his both hands so as to ask why am I behaving like this? I had no answer I felt so choked up with embarrassment, I could not look up into his eyes out of shame. He started opening the pane to come to me, I became so despondent that jumping from the balcony and committing suicide seemed the only way out. He opened the pane and was standing before me; he was looking so big and dreaded certainly nowhere near to the friend I have known for years. I was about to jump that something flashed in my mind. I asked myself “Why am I committing suicide? So what I didn’t deal with him earlier and my frivolous attitude has made him so angry. Why can I not face him now? He was my best buddy so what if I screwed it up, I know I can fix it back” I turned towards him and looked straight into his eyes, I apologized for my behavior, and promised to respect him thereafter. He saw the truth in my eyes but he was so furious about the incident that it took me whole night to convince him that I am his buddy and will never ever ignore him henceforth.

I learnt that if you ignore problems and don’t deal with them at the 1st place it will only grow bigger. If you close your eyes from them it will not vanish but when you open your eyes you will find yourself standing in balcony just like me with no option than suicide. I say lets dare to face it as that’s when we can really understand what we really are, what stuff we are made up of.

This morning inspite of being awake whole night I felt so relaxed, energized and proud of myself that I asked Sarah out for a coffee. She said yes and we will be going out at 4 in the evening 2 hrs from now. I need to finish up my work so that I can spend more time with her. Last night has taught me a lot and I will try and stick to my promise because if I would have committed suicide I would have never ever got the opportunity to go out with Sarah. Thank you GOD! And thanks for making Sarah so beautiful.

Will get back to you soon dear Diary, I hope CCD punch line may come true for me today “A lot can happen over coffee”







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